I was surprised to see tonight that i hadn’t written anything in 6 weeks. Then of course I had to think back as to what has been going on over the last 6 weeks that kept me from posting my thoughts here. Basically its because I once again had lost my equilibrium in my life. I let myself become too emotionally involved with a few friends and then spent a whole lot of time trying to escape from the current reality. I cut ties with my family because I can no longer deal with some of them and their inability to be supportive of me and my kids. Stuff at work that I wasn’t handling well, I don’t always handle changes well.
On the plus side during the last 6 weeks, I was able to start some of the renovations inside my home that i have been wanting for a long time. My bedroom was painted and the hallway. Next will be my daughters room and family room. Every room in my home was the old 70′s dark wood paneling and I absolutely hated it. It’s amazing what a coat of paint can do to make everything a much nicer place to live in. My bedroom is now a very pale shade of blue and compliments my dresser, night stand and bedding nicely. I finally went out and bought some room darkening curtains to cover the windows and its making a huge difference in my sleeping during the day time hours. Living in a 3rd shift world can be tough sometimes and getting proper sleep has been a huge issue for me.
The hallway is a cream/off white color and its amazing how bright it is during the day now. I keep going to check to see if I forgot to turn the lights off!! Its still weird to see it appear so bright during the day. My daughter and I both had ceiling fans installed in our rooms, the bedrooms have much lower ceilings than the rest of the house so…. no tall people allowed or you might get the top of your head chopped off by the blades but she and I are short so all is good for us! The ceiling fan will also help with my sleep issues now that we are just entering the best of summer’s weather and i don’t have air conditioning in my bedroom.
The colors for the next 2 rooms are still to be decided. In the fall I will do the kitchen and dining/office area and then all of the dark depressing paneling will be gone. After that I will save up to have all new floors installed as it desperately needs it and then bathroom renovation.
I’ve continued to lose weight over the last 6 weeks and am now up to a total of 33 lbs lost. I’m walking 3-5 miles daily, still working out with my weights and other misc items that I bought along the way.
I’m finding it harder and harder to spend time on the computer. I want to be moving and doing things whether its work or play doesn’t make much difference. I’m just tired of the old life that was my life since about 1993 – non-stop computer, building websites, taking care of kids and significant others and sleep.
My youngest daughter graduated from High School last week and soon will be flying the coop except for school breaks of course.
I look forward to living alone for the first time in my life. I’m sure at times I will miss having someone around but I also can’t wait for the days where I can do what i want in my own home 24 hours a day without having to worry about someone else all the time and what they need or want. No more bloody messes for me to clean up that either I or my cats didn’t make. Maybe I’m selfish but I just don’t care anymore. I’ve paid my dues, I’ve sacrificed much in my life for the benefit of others. Its time for me now.
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Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball that could tell me what the future would bring for me, for my kids. Then I am reminded that It’s the journey and not the destination that really matters. I’ve met a couple of really neat people lately both because of my job. It’s fun and exciting and laughter filled getting to know them. For whatever reasons, I instantly connected with both of them on an intellectual and spiritual level and I look forward to the tidbits of knowledge I learn about them each time I see them or talk to them. For me, there is nothing better than being able to kick back, relax around people who totally accept me as I am but are also able to be supportive of where I want to be. People who are able to be totally open about themselves, laugh at themselves and discuss everything with a totally open mind. I’ve always believed it was a good thing when someone could help me to see alternative views based on their life experiences and make me think about how I view myself and the world and how I came to those beliefs.
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Since my room mate moved out, I have been working out with Neoprene Dumbells and trying as often as I can to find someone to go with me, take power walks and be more active. Because my focus has been on strength training more so than actual weight loss I haven’t paid all that much attention to the scale. Needless to say I was surprised to learn that I have dropped over 20lbs since the beginning of March!
A few days ago I went out and bought a Stability Ball so that I could start working on other areas of my body including regaining the strength and balance in my core. So I have now added that to my regimen and as soon as I can figure out a way to bring it home I will be buying a Mountain, Sport & All Terrain Bike so I can go riding around the neighborhood.
I so far haven’t really noticed a difference in my clothing, but then again, I always wear clothing that was too big for me anyway for comfort reasons.
I’m not a big fan of actual dieting to lose weight because I always found in the past that it just made me crave all those things that most diets say not to eat. I’ve always believed moderation was the best way to go about it and lets face it, who among us doesn’t like cake, ice cream and various other sugary treats now and then.
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Well Mother’s Day came and went, barely a blip in my radar. I spent the day working my job from 3pm – 12:15 am. We were supposed to do dinner at my mom’s tonight and i said screw it. Just didn’t feel like going there so I grilled BBQ chicken at home and had dinner with my girls. Took a power walk with my oldest and that felt really good – nice high that had my heart pounding from the exertion so its all good. I’ve been working out with weights for a few months now and am ready to add more activity into my life.
Next up, find someone to do power walks and bike riding with me on a regular minimum 3 times a week basis…. all good things take time to develop 
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It’s 1:00am and I sit here in the dark with tears streaming down my face. Disappointed, Frustrated, Furious and Saddened by my Mother and her inability to comprehend that my youngest daughters Graduation party is supposed to be a celebration of her achievements and her parents for successfully completing raising her to “adulthood” and her release into a future full of promise. She will be entering a top notch college in the fall that she earned scholarships for. She is an incredible young lady who is cute, charming, intelligent and funny and she is someone that I am so proud to call my own even with all her faults and frailties.
My daughter’s father lives in another state. He is traveling to where we are in order to attend her graduation and celebrate our achievements. He will only be here a certain amount of time and we wanted to have her graduation party at a time where he will also be present. Unfortunately, where I live is an unsuitable place for her party because I just don’t have the space for it. Mom had agreed to host it but is now giving me a hard time about when it is occurring because my sister and aunt are coming in the following month from 2 other states. She wants me to wait until they arrive to do my daughters party. This would eliminate her father’s ability to be there.
Mom feels she shouldn’t have to accommodate my ex-husband and have the party when he is here. The fact that he is my ex has nothing to do with it. He may be my ex-husband but the most important part of this is that he is my daughter’s father. Him being my ex doesn’t negate the fact this celebration is one of our daughters success. As much as I would love to have the entire family there, this celebration is not for them. It is for my daughter, her father and myself.
My view is that we can get together again after they all arrive and have a “family reunion”. Is it really so bad to have 2 or more family gatherings during the time my sister & aunt will be in town? Let my daughter, her father and I have our day of celebration too without the hassles and stress.
Ultimately, it has been decided between My daughter, her father and I that we will eliminate the party and do our own private celebration with both my daughters and her father and his girlfriend. My mother can do as she wishes now, I just don’t guarantee that I will participate as I won’t take off from work if I’m scheduled to be there. I will already be losing a few days of work during the graduation week.
Sorry Mom – This isn’t about my sister and aunt. Its about my Daughter, Her Father & I and our celebration. I refuse to take the spotlight off my daughter in order to accommodate you on this one.
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Now that May has arrived, its time for College & High School Graduations to begin. My youngest daughter graduates from High School in June, hard to believe she is almost ready to take flight and move on to the next stage of her life. Even harder to believe is that it is now almost 27 years since I graduated – Where did that time go? Sometimes it seems like it was only yesterday and other times it feels like a lifetime ago.
In honor and celebration of this special time in our lives, I created some t-shirts for the 2010 graduate and for Mom & Dad to show off how proud they are!
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A few of my friends absolutely love going to play Bingo at their local Bingo Hall. Their enthusiasm for the game inspired me to create a line of bingo products for Bingo Lovers Everywhere. These designs are available on T-shirts, Mousepads, Coffee Mugs, Magnets, Keychains, Stickers and a variety of other products. You can check out the complete line of what is available in Meowser’s Bingo T-shirts & Gifts! Below are just a few of my favorite designs!
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Just thought I would share what my current computer set up looks like now. I have finally gotten all my graphic programs installed and am ready to get down to business again creating even better stuff than before I actually have 2 computers set up here, my old one which runs win xp pro and has all my web site building tools on it and the new one which has Windows 7 and so far only has my graphic programs installed. I ran into some compatibility issues with some of my programs not working on Vista so have decided to keep both computers running as I can’t afford to go out and replace all the programs that I use. Eventually I’m sure I will upgrade some of those too though, a bit at a time. I also have a laptop that runs Vista that I use to connect remotely to the other 2 computers when I don’t wish to be sitting at my desk and as the warmer weather starts to come on, I will be more inclined to be sitting outside while I work.
A good friend of mine is always saying “I Hate People” so here is a special shirt I created for her today!
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While doing updates last night on a few of my web sites i found that they had released some of the new 2011 Wall Calendars, Desk Calendars, Mini Desk Calendars. I’ve updated a couple of my sites with the new 2011 Cat Calendars and 2011 Garfield Calendars & Planners.! As a Garfield and Cat fanatic I was excited to see such a great selection. Now to decide on which one should adorn my walls for 2011!
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On Thursday I got my federal tax money back and decided in addition to paying off a few bills that I would get myself a new computer, as my old was was 6 years old and I was beginning to run into problems with not enough ram with the programs I was running. So far I am absolutely loving it! I’m still in the process of getting the programs I most use installed on it but the speed and processing power that it has will suit my needs with my graphic programs completely.
I decided to get this one: HP – Pavilion Elite Desktop with AMD Phenom™ II Quad-Core Processor
Product Features
- AMD Phenom™ II quad-core processor 945*
True multicore processing for extreme multitasking performance. Cool’n'Quiet™ 3.0 and CoolCore™ technologies and Dual Dynamic Power Management™ for efficient energy usage.
- Direct Connect Architecture
Delivers overall system performance. HyperTransport™ technology, AMD Balanced Smart Cache and AMD Wide Floating Point Accelerator for quick access times and improved performance.
- AMD Memory Optimizer Technology
For multithreaded software performance, and AMD Virtualization with Rapid Virtualization Indexing to help virtualization software run securely and efficiently.
- 8GB PC3-8500 DDR3 SDRAM
For multitasking power, expandable to 16GB.
- Blu-ray Disc-enabled DVD±RW/CD-RW drive
Features read support for next-generation Blu-ray Disc (BD-ROM). Double-layer support using compatible media. Supports LightScribe direct-disc labels using compatible media.
- 2MB L2 + 6MB shared L3 cache memory
For efficient system processing.
- 1TB Serial ATA hard drive
Offers plenty of storage capacity.
- ATI Radeon HD 5450 Series graphics
For lush images with stunning detail. HDMI output for connection to and HDTV. High-definition audio with up to 7.1 surround sound capability.
- 15-in-1 media reader
Supports CompactFlash Type I/II, SmartMedia, Memory Stick, Memory Stick PRO, Memory Stick Duo, Memory Stick PRO Duo, Secure Digital and miniSD.
- Also supports MultiMediaCard, MultiMediaCard Plus MultiMediaCard mobile, Reduced-Size MultiMediaCard and xD-Picture Card.
- IEEE 1394 (FireWire) interface and 7 USB 2.0 ports
For fast digital data transfer and easy peripheral connectivity.
- Built-in high-speed wireless LAN (802.11b/g/n)
Connect to the Internet without wires.
- Built-in 10/100/1000Base-T Ethernet networking interface
For flexible wired Web connectivity options.
- Microsoft Windows 7 Home Premium Edition 64-bit operating system preinstalled
Provides a stable computing platform.
- Software package included
With HP MediaSmart Suite, Microsoft Works 9.0 and more. 60-day trial version of Microsoft Office included.
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