Mar
10
2010

The day I dreamed of is now here, but to get here I had to lose something along the way. As much as I wanted to celebrate my freedom yesterday when he moved out, it was not in my heart to do so. I know and accept that this is the way it had to be. It was my choice but I’m not as cold hearted as I portray myself to be. For what its worth, he owns a part of my heart for the rest of my life. I hope that he too will be able to look back and see the positive of our time shared together and remember the fun and the laughs we had along the way. May he too find the happiness he is seeking.

Did he irritate and piss me off sometimes? – Yup and I know for a fact I did the same to him, sometimes on purpose and he knew it too. But even with all that, he was there for me when I lost my house, my dignity and pride and reached the lowest of lows, totally defeated and humiliated. He was the one that was there for me when my daughter was diagnosed with thyroid cancer, sat there with me in the hospital during her surgeries. He was the one who took care of me when I couldn’t take care of myself such as during my hand surgery recuperation. He always made sure I was up for work on time, and made sure my work clothing was dry for when I woke up, my constant companion for road trips, shopping visits, walks around the neighborhood. He was my keeper, my stress reliever, my lover and most importantly my friend.

A New Life – Now is time for me. I’m ready to run again and fly free. Its time to finish rediscovering the real me, the one that has been screaming to get out for so long if I could ever find the right path – the path to the LIVING instead of just surviving. I know I’m one step closer now but in order to get there, I had to lose a piece of my heart. I won’t be celebrating my freedom in the way I envisioned, instead I will rejoice in being one step closer to where I want to be.

A New Life -
What I wouldn’t give to have a new life!
One thing I have learned as I go through life
Nothing is for free along the way

A new start -
That’s the thing I need to give me new heart
Half a chance in life to find a new part,
Just a simple role that I can play.

A new hope -
Something to convince me to renew hope
A new day,
Bright enough to help me find my way!

A new chance -
One that maybe has a touch of romance.
Where can it be,
The chance for me?

A new dream -
I have one I know that very few dream!
I would like to see that overdue dream -
Even though it never may come true!

A new love -
Though I know there’s no such thing as true love -
Even so,
Although I never knew love,
Still I feel that one dream is my due!

A new world -
This one thing I want to ask of you, world -
Once! Before it’s time to say adieu, world!
One sweet chance to prove the cynics wrong!

A new life -
More and more, I’m sure,
As I go through life,
Just to play the game
And to pursue life -
Just to share its pleasures and belong!
That’s what I’ve been here for all along!

Each day’s a brand new life!

Mar
9
2010

Today’s the day my new life begins! Whooo HOOOOO!!! While I wish I could be out celebrating, it will have to wait for another night as I am working the job tonight. Regardless I’ll be doing my happy dance and so will my daughter! So do me a favor – Celebrate for me tonight! – LOL

Celebrate Good Times
Come On ! – Let’s Celebrate

Celebrate Good Times
Come On ! – Let’s Celebrate

There’s A Party Going On Right Here

A Celebration To Last Troughout The Years.
So Bring Your Good Times And Your Laughter
Too

We’re Gonna Celebrate Your Party With You !

Come On Now
- Celebration
-
Let’s All Celebrate And Have A Good Time

- Celebration
- We Go Celebrate And Have A Good Time.

It’s Time To Come Together
It’s Up To You
Watch Your Pleasure

Everyone Around The World
Come On
It’s A Celebration.
Celebrate Good Times
Come On
It’s A Celebration

Celebrate Good Times
Come On
Let’s Celebrate !

We’re Gonna Have A Good Time Tonight
Let’s Celebrate
It’s Alright

We’re Gonna Have A Good Time Tonight
Let’s Celebrate
It’s Alright

Baby
We’re Gonna Have A Good Time Tonight

Let’s Celebrate
It’s Alright

We’re Gonna Have A Good Time Tonight
Let’s Celebrate
It’s Alright.

Celebrate Good Times
Come On
Let’s Celebrate

Celebrate Good Times
Come On
It’s A Celebration.
Celebrate Good Times
Come On
Let’s Celebrate

Celebrate Good Times
Come On
It’s A Celebration.

Come On And Celebrate – Tonight
‘Cause Everything’s Gonna Be
Alright.
Let’s Celebrate
Celebrate Good Times
Come On

Let’s Celebrate
Celebrate Good Times
Come On !

Mar
8
2010

While thinking of today’s song, I had to go with something that isn’t quite as upbeat as usual. Today will be the last day my room mate and I spend together. I think that this song says it so much better than I ever could. We’ve had some great times together, but its time to say goodbye for many reasons. I will miss you and am grateful for your patience, understanding and freedom given that allowed me the time and strength needed to fly free and solo again. If you ever wish a side trip for a few days, you will always be welcome to come spend some time with me.

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it’s just
It’s just…
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright….
Yeahhhh…
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa…
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let’s talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I’ll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain’t been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it’ll only take a minute
You’ll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don’t wanna see you cry
But I don’t wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don’t know? What’s on,
The other side of the door
When you’re walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I’ma do the best I can to get you to understand

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you, it’s me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, “Why? Why?”
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don’t know? What’s on,
The other side of the door
When you’re walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I’m tryna say.
We just can’t go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can’t do it
I, I just can’t do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can’t do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
‘Cause if I don’t you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don’t feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it’s not you it’s me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There’s never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it’s hard but I gotta do it,
And it’s killing me
Cause there’s never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Mar
7
2010

We are continually amazed, astounded, hurt, and betrayed over events we see going on around us such as friends or ourselves going back to boyfriends/girlfriends/friends who have shown they have no respect for them/us but they/we have no RESPECT for themselves/ourselves if we do this, so how can they/we expect to receive it from another? Treat yourself with RESPECT & LOVE FIRST.

What you want
Baby, I got
What you need
Do you know I got it?
All I’m askin’
Is for a little respect when you come home (just a little bit)
Hey baby (just a little bit) when you get home
(just a little bit) mister (just a little bit)

I ain’t gonna do you wrong while you’re gone
Ain’t gonna do you wrong ’cause I don’t wanna
All I’m askin’
Is for a little respect when you come home (just a little bit)
Baby (just a little bit) when you get home (just a little bit)
Yeah (just a little bit)

I’m about to give you all of my money
And all I’m askin’ in return, honey
Is to give me my profits
When you get home (just a, just a, just a, just a)
Yeah baby (just a, just a, just a, just a)
When you get home (just a little bit)
Yeah (just a little bit)

Ooo, your kisses
Sweeter than honey
And guess what?
So is my money
All I want you to do for me
Is give it to me when you get home (re, re, re ,re)
Yeah baby (re, re, re ,re)
Whip it to me (respect, just a little bit)
When you get home, now (just a little bit)

R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Find out what it means to me
R-E-S-P-E-C-T
Take care, TCB

Oh (sock it to me, sock it to me,
sock it to me, sock it to me)
A little respect (sock it to me, sock it to me,
sock it to me, sock it to me)
Whoa, babe (just a little bit)
A little respect (just a little bit)
I get tired (just a little bit)
Keep on tryin’ (just a little bit)
You’re runnin’ out of foolin’ (just a little bit)
And I ain’t lyin’ (just a little bit)
(re, re, re, re) ’spect
When you come home (re, re, re ,re)
Or you might walk in (respect, just a little bit)
And find out I’m gone (just a little bit)
I got to have (just a little bit)
A little respect (just a little bit)

Mar
6
2010

Great song to remind us to not sweat the small stuff in life as we can only make things worse. Stay focused on the positive! I wasn’t able to embed the original song by Boby McFerrin so I included this fun one instead :)

Here is a little song I wrote
You might want to sing it note for note
Don’t worry be happy
In every life we have some trouble
When you worry you make it double
Don’t worry, be happy……

Ain’t got no place to lay your head
Somebody came and took your bed
Don’t worry, be happy
The land lord say your rent is late
He may have to litigate
Don’t worry, be happy
Lood at me I am happy
Don’t worry, be happy
Here I give you my phone number
When you worry call me
I make you happy
Don’t worry, be happy
Ain’t got no cash, ain’t got no style
Ain’t got not girl to make you smile
But don’t worry be happy
Cause when you worry
Your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
So don’t worry, be happy (now)…..

There is this little song I wrote
I hope you learn it note for note
Like good little children
Don’t worry, be happy
Listen to what I say
In your life expect some trouble
But when you worry
You make it double
Don’t worry, be happy……
Don’t worry don’t do it, be happy
Put a smile on your face
Don’t bring everybody down like this
Don’t worry, it will soon past
Whatever it is
Don’t worry, be happy

Mar
5
2010

After working 10 nights straight and only a couple days off when I was expecting to have until Monday night off, I figure this is the right song for today! LOL Got called into work again tonight. Good thing I slept most of the day!!

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

Onetta there in the corner stand
and wonders where she is and
it’s strange to her
some people seem to have everything

Nine a.m. on the hour hand
and she’s waiting for the bell
and she’s looking real pretty
just wait for her clientele

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

Twenty five years have
come and gone
and she’ seen a lot of tears
of the ones who come in
they really seem to need her there

It’s a sacrifice working day to day
for little money just tips for pay
But it’s worth it all
just to hear them say that they care

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

She already knows
she’s seen her bad times
she already knows
these are the good times

She’ll never sell out
she never will
not for a dollar bill
she works hard

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

She works hard for the money
so hard for it honey
she works hard for the money
so you better treat her right

Mar
4
2010

Eye of the Tiger seems to be the purrfect song to remind me to keep my dreams alive for the future. The future I face will be filled with many more challenges to overcome.

Risin’ up, back on the street
Did my time, took my chances
Went the distance, now I’m back on my feet
Just a man and his will to survive

So many times, it happens too fast
You change your passion for glory
Don’t lose your grip on the dreams of the past
You must fight just to keep them alive

Chorus:
It’s the eye of the tiger, it’s the cream of the fight
Risin’ up to the challenge of our rival
And the last known survivor stalks his prey in the night
And he’s watchin’ us all in the eye of the tiger

Face to face, out in the heat
Hangin’ tough, stayin’ hungry
They stack the odds ’til we take to the street
For we kill with the skill to survive

chorus

Risin’ up, straight to the top
Have the guts, got the glory
Went the distance, now I’m not gonna stop
Just a man and his will to survive

chorus

The eye of the tiger (repeats out)…

Mar
3
2010

You could never know what its like
Your blood like winter freezes just like ice
And there’s a cold lonely light
that shines from you
You’ll wind up like the wreck you hide
behind that mask you use

And did you think this fool could never win
Well look at me, I’m coming back again
I got a taste of love in a simple way
And if you need to know while
I’m still standing you just fade away

Don’t you know I’m still standing
better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor,
feeling like a little kid

I’m still standing
after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life
without you on my mind

I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)
I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)

Once I never could hope to win
You starting down the road leaving me again
The threats you made were meant to cut me down
And if our love was just a circus
you’d be a clown by now

No I’m still standing
better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor,
feeling like a little kid

I’m still standing
after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life
without you on my mind

I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)
I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)

(Instrumental)

Don’t you know I’m still standing
better than I ever did
Looking like a true survivor,
feeling like a little kid

I’m still standing
after all this time
Picking up the pieces of my life
without you on my mind

I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)
I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)
I’m still standing (yeah yeah yeah)

Mar
2
2010

After sharing songs with a friend of mine to lift spirits and start the day off right, i decided i’d start posting my Song of the Day here. Most of these will be Blood Pumping, Makes ya Wanna Dance, Makes Ya Wanna Live kind of music :) Ultimately I’m looking for music to dance/exercise to after work to get all the kinks out! Got a song that you think might just be a great addition? Let me know!

I think this song is a great one to start things off with for obvious reasons – another week or so and I’ll be FREE to move on to the next adventures in my life.

I see you looking at me
Like I got something for you
And the way that you stare
Don’t you dare
‘Cause I’m not about to
Just give it on up to you
‘Cause there are some things I won’t do
And I’m not afraid to tell you
I don’t ever want to leave you confused

The more you try
The less I bite
And I don’t have to think it through
You know if I’m into you

I don’t need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don’t need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don’t need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain’t around
Oh!

You know I got my own life
And I bought everything that’s in it
So if you want to be with me
It ain’t all about the bling you bringing
I want a love that’s for real
And without that then no deal
And baby I don’t need a hand
If it only wants to grab one thing

The more you try
The less I bite
And I don’t have to think it through
You know if I’m feeling you

I don’t need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don’t need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don’t need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain’t around

Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
Let it go
[Repeat 4X]

I don’t need a
I don’t need a man, I don’t
I don’t need a man
I’ll get me through
‘Cause I know I’m fine
I feel brand new

I don’t need a
I don’t need a man, I don’t
I don’t need a man
I’ll make it through
‘Cause I know I’m fine
Without you!

I don’t need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don’t need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don’t need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain’t around
Oh!

I don’t need a man (I’m over you)
I don’t need a man (I’m over you)
I don’t need a man
(I’m without you)
(I’m over you)

I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man
I don’t need a man

Feb
18
2010

A friend of mine who is considering the ending of his marriage recently mentioned the book Too Good To Leave, Too Good To Stay – A Step-by-Step Guide to Help You Decide Whether to Stay In or Get Out of Your Relationship by Mira Kirshenbaum to me. Because I am currently in the situation of changing my life, I decided to read the book also.

The book is a step by step guide to help you make the best decision for yourself as to whether or not you should stay in the relationship or get out and move on in your life. As someone who has been filled with much self doubt over the upcoming changes, as to whether or not I’m making the right moves it has been extremely eye opening to me and reaffirming that I have indeed made the right choice for the future. Hopefully the insights I have gained with this book will also help me with whatever future relationship I may have with someone special.