Racing Mind & Conflicting Emotions
Looks like my new future is going to be beginning earlier than expected. My roommate is planning on moving out within the next couple weeks, just a matter of making his final arrangements, he found a place to live. Strangely enough in the same exact house he lived in when he moved in with me almost 3 years ago. How bizarre is that?
Needless to say the mind has now begun to race for tidying up any of the loose ends between us. Things I need to make sure he takes with him, stuff I need to make sure I get back from him, getting the electric transferred to my name, a new lease with the park where my mobile home is located, him signing over the home totally to me so that in the future if I decide to sell and move out we don’t have to hunt him down for a signature.
I’m eager and saddened at the same time, very conflicting thoughts & emotions. I will miss his friendship/companionship sometimes but I will also totally embrace the moving forward with my life and standing on my own two feet again. If he wasn’t relocating to another state, I know that we would remain friends and do things together but distance will turn us into online friends primarily and that is sad.
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I sympathize
And I’ll never criticize
All you’ve ever meant to my life
I don’t want to let you down
I don’t want to lead you on
i don’t want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There’s nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I’m not sure I’m worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don’t want to let you down
I don’t want to lead you on
i don’t want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There’s nothing left to say but goodbye
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can’t live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There’s nothing left to try
Though it’s gonna hurt us both
There’s no other way than to say goodbye