The little things that make me chuckle lately
Its now been 3 weeks since the room mate left. I miss him at times still – the companionship we shared. Soon he will be back online so we can at least be online friends, i will like that – but I must admit, i still feel that it was the right move to make and I chuckle at some of the little things that he always gave me the impression of that I’d be totally lost without him or so he wanted to believe I guess.
Little things around the household like taking out the trash, cleaning/changing the cat box, carrying in the groceries, I seriously chuckle every time i do those things because it was never that I couldn’t do them – or that I had him around to do them – it was always he had this belief that he had to do them. Sometimes he’d get mad because I wasn’t doing them but every time I’d start to do these things, he’d take over and not let me do them so eventually it got to the point that i didn’t even bother to try.
I do realize he was trying to be helpful, but to someone who is as fiercely independent as I am, I always took it the wrong way as if he felt I wasn’t capable of it – perhaps this is why I’m so amused by the little things now. When I’m on a mission, there is NOBODY around to take over and make it easier on me – I stand strong all by myself and that it such an incredible high to me – doing it all by myself.
So where does one go to find a companion who is strong in his/her own right and will not allow a woman to walk all over him, yet at the same time can allow the strong woman to be fiercely independent as I am without offending me as if I’m not capable of doing stuff but can still be the supportive person i need emotionally, intellectually stimulating and a Wild Cat in the bedroom? Am I expecting too much?
Probably – but I can dream 